Chapter 181 Chapter 181 Liking Someone Feels Like Happiness And Enjoyment
Chapter 181 Liking Someone Feels Like Happiness And Enjoyment
A familiar story, yet with completely unfamiliar people.
Possessiveness that made it hard to breathe, a controlling desire so strong it couldn't be ignored, a love that remained unsatiated even when together, furiously burdening the other person with its weight.
Could this boy's girlfriend truly feel happy in the face of such a distorted kind of affection?
It was one thing when they weren't together, when she was being pursued.
But once they were together, she was still constantly subjected to her boyfriend's declarations and expressions of love. He cared about her so much she had no personal space; he wanted to stick to her every free moment, believing she was the only one in his life, and thus cared about her beyond measure.
He even wanted her to like only him.
It was as if she was seeing another version of Xiaocheng and herself from a different world.
Only, Wei Feng was just an ordinary person, slightly more obsessive than most.
But Chi Xiaocheng was a complete and utter yandere.
Yet, what they had in common was that as the recipients of declarations, affection, and pressure, her own reaction and that of his girlfriend were exactly the same.
They felt confused, unacceptable, even frightened and overwhelmed.
Sure enough, I'm not the only one who feels this way, right?
Xiaocheng was like that too; her love was so heavy it made it hard to breathe.
"I think..."
Wei Feng's words recaptured Su Tao's attention. "I think she must have liked me at some point, right?"
Su Tao's mouth slightly opened. "But you said she broke up with you because she couldn't stand your relentless affection, so why would she still like you?"
Wei Feng chuckled. "Though your words are a bit unpleasant to hear, I'm about to die anyway, so I won't get angry at you."
"Here's what I think."
A breeze ruffled his hair, fluttering the young man's clothes.
"When she was with me, she had smiles that were truly happy and enjoyable. Wasn't that proof that she liked me?"
Su Tao's gaze was a little vacant. "Liking someone... is like that?"
"I think so. If she didn't like me, then why would she want to stay by my side, why would she dream of me when she slept, and why would she smile?"
"It's just that she never told me my shortcomings, and after we argued, we only reflected on ourselves, never pointing out the other's flaws."
"Gradually, I pressured her tighter and tighter, and then..."
"Pop!"
Wei Feng clapped his hands, producing a crisp sound. "The balloon couldn't hold that much air and burst."
"But actually, if she had told me my flaws, I would have changed. I would have become the person she liked, because I liked her."
"Unfortunately, this is often something you only realize after missing out and regretting. If I had been a little more mature, she wouldn't have left me."
Wei Feng gave a self-deprecating, bitter smile, then turned to Su Tao. "And you, young lady, why do you want to jump into the river?"
"I..."
Su Tao opened her mouth, her mind still replaying Wei Feng's words.
When they were together, they would show happy smiles, feel very enjoyment, very comfortable—this was their love.
If she had pointed out his flaws, his shortcomings, he would have corrected them.
Because he liked her.
Thinking it over carefully, could Xiaocheng also be like this?
Once, she had hoped Xiaocheng would be a bit more obedient. For that half-month, not only did Xiaocheng not have a single yandere episode, she didn't even cause her the slightest trouble in daily life. Even at home, she was like a little kitten.
She would alleviate her fatigue after a long day, listening to her grumble about work or studies.
Whenever Su Tao looked her way, the sensitive Xiaocheng would sense her gaze and turn to offer a smile.
When she met Xiaocheng's eyes, she would naturally be healed by her smile, filled with joy.
But at that time, she didn't know how to cherish it. She even thought Xiaocheng was gradually recovering and she could focus more on other things.
Wasn't this just bringing trouble upon herself?
Was it this young man's fault, or his immaturity, that he was broken up with?
She had never dared to speak to Xiaocheng about her yandere tendencies.
If Xiaocheng had realized her abnormality earlier, would she have cooperated with treatment like that?
Then she wouldn't have to hide from her; she could stay by her side even if she was yandere, and Xiaocheng would feel happy and naturally wouldn't succumb to her yandere tendencies.
After all, she liked her so much.
After all, she listened to her so much.
It wasn't Xiaocheng who was wrong all along; it was me...
From the day of their argument during summer vacation, she had never spoken honestly with Xiaocheng.
The only time was the day Xiaocheng shielded her from a bullet and died.
In the very last moment, when everything was over, she... argued with her.
Argued with her!
Xiaocheng couldn't even hear her confession!
Even though she was fading, departing.
But at the moment of eternal farewell.
At the very end.
She never got her wish, leaving her forever with regret.
Memories were covered by a vast snow. Wei Feng, seeing Su Tao had not spoken for a long time, called out in surprise, "Young lady?"
Su Tao quickly snapped back, forcing a smile. "I'm fine, I was just thinking about her."
"Also heartbroken like me?"
Su Tao nodded.
The big boy couldn't help but sigh. "I never thought I'd meet a kindred spirit to die with just by jumping into the river. You can speak what's been bottled up inside; at least having a listener helps a lot, and I'll take your words to my grave. No one will ever know."
Perhaps she was truly stifled, or perhaps she sought an answer.
Su Tao turned her head. Darkness and snow covered her view; she couldn't clearly see the young man's face, but she still asked, "Do you know what a yandere is?"
"I do." Wei Feng was a bit of an otaku himself. "Did you fall in love with a yandere, or did a yandere fall in love with you?"
"The latter."
"The latter, huh. A yandere's heavy love isn't something ordinary people can appreciate, but I actually envy you quite a bit."
Su Tao cast a surprised look. "Envy?"
"Yes," Wei Feng leaned on the railing. "That kind of love is steadfast and unwavering."
"But wouldn't that be a lot of pressure?"
Wei Feng tilted his head. "Why would you feel pressured?"
"I..." Su Tao opened her mouth and spoke in a low voice. "I feel that she often cuts herself, and often hurts others over small things, which feels... very terrifying."
"Just like your girlfriend, she felt your controlling and possessive desire was too strong, felt pressured, and that's why she broke up, right?"
Wei Feng: "Because she was just playing around with me, and I wanted to spend my whole life with her. Our ideas conflicted, and we couldn't find common ground."
"But it's undeniable that for a period of time, she was very happy by my side."
"Don't just think about those things that make you depressed and scared. Since you're already preparing to jump into the river, why think about bad things?"
"The 'life flashing before your eyes' moment is for remembering beautiful, cherished things."
Wei Feng's voice, carried by the wind and snow, gradually entered Su Tao's ears. "Empty your mind. When she was by your side, didn't you feel even a little bit of happiness and enjoyment?"
"Yanderes aren't scary. They are scary because they lack a sense of security, so they commit extreme acts. No matter how extreme her actions, they are all for you, because she loves you."
"Just as I lack a sense of security, so I subconsciously pressured my ex-girlfriend."
"But when you hold her hand, and your eyes are filled with only her,"
"As a yandere, she is very obedient, and very cute."
His words, accompanied by a gust of wind, blew her dark-gray long hair.
And also carried away the glistening teardrops from the corner of the young woman's eyes.
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