Chapter 346 Chapter 344 Childhood
Chapter 344 Childhood
"Little light orb, how many times has it been?"
The girl sat on the ground, legs drawn up, hugging her knees. The pure white space was empty, without even a wall she could lean on.
She had failed again, but this time it was a little different than before. After returning to that point in time, she confessed her feelings to Su Tao.
Naturally, she received the disappointing answer she had expected.
She didn't even need to wait until December 25th, four months later. She proactively walked into the path of a speeding sports car.
Rather than endure further torment later, she thought it was better to die early and start over.
Yes, she was starting to become calculating.
She didn't want to waste so much effort. She didn't even want her Tao Tao to completely leave Ye Liang or fully wake up, as she had initially.
She just wanted to hug her one more time.
To be praised and have her head patted, just like before.
She could endure every pain, clinging to a sliver of hope, hoping that her Tao Tao would look at her properly again, at least resolving the misunderstanding from their argument.
But each time, this persistence only brought despair.
Everyone needs a pillar of support.
Enthusiasm also has its limits.
The little light orb looked at the girl, whose body should have been full of energy after being reborn, but who exuded a sense of listlessness and decay. It couldn't help but sigh, "It's the 43rd time. You're always too impatient, so you haven't made any progress at all."
"You're constantly draining yourself, never calming down to think properly."
"You just sit here for a while and then get up and walk towards that door again. I suspect you haven't even thought about what to do to protect yourself after going back in time."
The girl gave a self-deprecating laugh. "Aren't you also out of ideas? You're just an orb. You don't have feelings. How would you understand my heart?"
"Do you know that as soon as I do nothing, I hear Tao Tao's voice in my ears? It's like she's locked in a cage, constantly begging me for help. We've been together for over ten years. How can I ignore her?"
"Protect myself, protect myself, protect myself!"
"What's the point of protecting myself!"
The girl's words grew increasingly extreme. "The one I want to protect is her! Do you know how miserable Tao Tao was in the ending you showed me before? In the end, she was in so much pain that she could only commit suicide!!!"
The little light orb watched as tears streamed down the girl's face as she spoke, and it fell into silence.
It had previously shown her the female lead, Su Tao's, ending and a portion of the original work that involved abuse in order to make the little girl think more calmly, increase her drive, and prevent her from giving up.
But it hadn't expected it to have the opposite effect.
After showing her the ending of the female lead, Su Tao, and a portion of the original work that involved abuse, she became even more extreme and impulsive.
It really wanted to say.
You want to protect Su Tao, afraid that she will be abused, suffer, and commit suicide like in the ending.
But have you ever thought about how you are suffering in every one of your reincarnations?
She hasn't reached the ending yet.
But for the sake of her ending, you have already experienced your own ending over and over again.
But the little light orb couldn't offer any better advice.
It wasn't the type to think deeply.
If it had a human brain, it would probably be the slow-thinking type, more like a pure observer.
Neither of them were the type to think deeply.
And there was no one else here who could offer the girl advice.
The little light orb saw that the girl seemed to be about to get up again. It knew that she didn't know what to do, so she was just going to go to that door again and try again from the beginning.
So it quickly said, "Can you... can you tell me why you have to save her? There must be many people who are important to you, like your parents and your brother."
Perhaps it had found a topic.
The girl, who was originally about to get up, slowly sat back down.
Rarely, a hint of a smile appeared on her lips. "How should I put it? The difference between Tao Tao and my brother and parents is that she will always see me."
"My parents are very ordinary farmers in the village."
"Dad has to work in the fields every day. He's always in a hurry to eat and drink. He rarely talks to me and isn't good at expressing himself. Occasionally, he'll bring me a little gift when he comes back from the market. I can feel his love, but... I can't get closer to him."
"Because Dad is too busy."
"Mom works in a factory. After getting home from work, she helps Dad at night after dinner. When the dry season comes, she has to go to the fields in the middle of the night to divert water to the land and watch over it for a whole night to prevent other people from stealing our water."
"Occasionally, Mom will hug me and say sorry or something, but I'm afraid they're the type who think they need to work harder to give me a better life."
"Mainly when I was little, my brother was the eldest son, so my parents' attention was mostly on him. It wasn't until later when my brother became rebellious that my parents cared more about me, but by that time, I already had Tao Tao."
"My brother is very good at fighting. If anyone bullies me, he will definitely beat that person up, but boys are always naughty. My brother always liked to catch fish and shrimp. He didn't understand anything and used to make me cry."
"My family is very good, but... occasionally, I still feel like I'm alone."
There was actually a bit of happiness in her words.
But it also revealed helplessness towards her family.
They already had to try their best to survive. Even their love for her was hidden in every aspect of life, but the girl was too young to understand.
She continued, "Because I was in poor health, I was always said to be a jinx in the family. Every year, the family had to spend money to treat my illness."
"At school, I was always bullied. After I told my brother once, my brother beat up all the people who bullied me. As a result, that person's leg was almost broken, and my family had to pay a lot of money. My brother was almost expelled from school."
"I felt like I was causing trouble for my family, so I didn't dare to say anything after that, even if I was bullied again."
"Gradually, I got used to it."
"Anyway, it was always like that, all alone. If someone helped me, it would cause trouble for me."
"But that feeling of being bullied, of no one in the whole world reaching out to you, was terrible. Several times, I thought, maybe I should just die. My family wouldn't have to spend money to treat my illness, and the money could all be used for my brother, so he could go to a better school and read better books."
"My parents wouldn't be criticized by the villagers, and they could wear better clothes. We could even save a lot of rice."
"And a jinx like me wouldn't cause trouble for anyone else."
"But then, just when those thoughts were getting stronger and stronger, she appeared."
The corners of the girl's lips turned up in a sweet and happy smile, "The new transfer student, and also my... white moonlight."
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