Chapter 277 Chapter 276: Love Is A Cycle
Chapter 276: Love Is A Cycle
The suicide note sat before Chi Xiaocheng. The paper was a bit wrinkled from being left out for too long. One could faintly see the marks of a forceful grip on one of the corners, as well as dried water stains, drop after drop.
Even without reading the words, the paper's appearance alone could conjure an image of the incredible sadness the person who received the note must have felt at that moment.
Tears blurred the ink, and the thin paper had been crumpled into circle after circle.
In Su Tao's eyes, Chi Xiaocheng was intently reading the contents of the suicide note, motionless as if truly recalling past events.
In reality, Chi Xiaocheng was indeed lost in memories.
The contents of the letter were memories she didn't want to revisit. At that time, she had given her all. Although faking her death was part of the plan, in the end, she had poured all her emotions into it.
But what she received in return was rejection.
Tao Tao, oh Tao Tao, if only you had cared about me this much back then.
Chi Xiaocheng admitted that she had been a little happy and a little soft-hearted these past two days watching Su Tao's anxiousness.
Her own anxiety was one thing, but she enjoyed seeing Su Tao show how much she cared about her in various ways.
But the initial softness she felt gradually solidified after seeing the suicide note.
Wasn't she trying to increase Tao Tao's possessiveness precisely to avoid repeating the past?
If she softened now, she might regret it later because of various things.
So she snapped out of her reverie, saying calmly, "Su Tao, I don't know how you got this, and it is my handwriting, but this kind of joke isn't funny. I'm alive and well now, how could I have died and written a suicide note?"
Seeing that her trump card had no effect, Su Tao immediately grabbed Chi Xiaocheng's shoulders, "No, you wrote it when you were trying to take your life, but you failed, so you're alive and well now!"
Chi Xiaocheng frowned, "Then tell me, why would I try to take my life?"
Su Tao replied immediately, "Of course, because you confessed your feelings to me back then, you liked me, but I rejected you, and you couldn't accept it, so you tried to take your life."
"So this is completely absurd." Chi Xiaocheng lost her patience, pouting, "Leaving aside the fact that I would take my own life so easily, just the fact that I confessed to you, do you really think that's possible?"
"How is that not possible!"
"I don't remember anything like that at all. If you're looking for inspiration and material for a video or a novel, then I'll just laugh it off."
Chi Xiaocheng impatiently pushed the suicide note back and turned halfway away, indicating that she didn't want to continue talking to Su Tao. "Let's just drop this topic. It's all so baffling; I don't understand what you're talking about. If you're tired, go get some rest."
Her memories remained jumbled.
Not even the slightest bit affected by the cards Su Tao played.
Su Tao had never imagined this scene. Her brain had even lost its ability to think calmly, and she just blurted out words she shouldn't have said.
"Xiaocheng, I'm really not lying to you. This isn't a script, a dream, or a novel plot."
"The reason you don't have these memories is that your memories are messed up!"
"You have amnesia, you've created false memories, and you've automatically blocked out a lot of feelings about me. You used to like me very much. You've forgotten all of that!"
Chi Xiaocheng gave her an out, leaving room for reconciliation in her words.
Su Tao didn't want to end it like this, so she tore through the last veil separating them, laying the real problem on the table.
Practically forcing a response from Chi Xiaocheng.
Chi Xiaocheng's tea-brown hair swayed slightly as she turned her head, her expression already somewhat annoyed. "Are you ever going to stop saying these things? I've already said I don't remember, but you insist on making up these things. If my memories really were messed up, why hasn't anyone told me?"
"Even the doctors haven't said anything, but you're just talking nonsense here."
"Su Tao, please, just go out and calm down. The things you're saying are just too absurd."
"I used to confess to you? How is that possible!"
The last sentence was incredibly firm, resembling Su Tao's tone when she rejected Chi Xiaocheng in the past.
At the source of everything.
In the basement.
Chi Xiaocheng spoke words of love and confession.
And Su Tao had rejected her with those same heart-wrenching words.
Her mind began to spin. Her heart choked up. The annoyed expression made Su Tao hallucinate, seeing Chi Xiaocheng's expression the moment she woke up in the hospital, equally loathing.
The little bit of rapport they had managed to rebuild, her finally calling her Su Tao, was all gone.
Having resolved to awaken her memories, she received this in return?
What next?
Unable to awaken her memories, Xiaocheng would continue to hate her.
To get away, she would deliberately approach Fang Ning. Dongfang Yang and Si Chen would seize the opportunity. By the time everything had come to fruition, and she regained her memories, would it even matter?
Words of pleading involuntarily came from Su Tao's mouth, "Xiaocheng... please don't be like this... have you forgotten? You used to call me Tao Tao, with love and affection in your voice."
"Su Tao is already a thing of the past!"
"That was a childhood nickname, what we called each other in middle school, even high school."
"But I want you to call me Tao Tao now, from the time we were in college, from the time you confessed to me in the basement, where's the you who called me Tao Tao then!"
Her trembling hand reached out again to Chi Xiaocheng's shoulder, attempting to use the most intimate address to call back her memories.
But her even more aggressive words only brought a heavier rejection.
Chi Xiaocheng turned and slapped Su Tao's outstretched hand away, scolding loudly, "Can you stop being so unreasonable? You're always being so weird, always bothering me. Can't you go find something you enjoy doing?"
The clock was circular. The hour, minute, and second hands circled every day, as if to say: time is a cycle.
Starting at 00:01, after completing a full day, it doesn't reach 24:00, but rather 00:00.
She vaguely remembered saying something like this to Xiaocheng during a fight in the summer after graduating high school.
Saying she didn't understand things, saying she was always pestering her, saying she had nothing to do all day.
She had countless opportunities to reach out and grab Xiaocheng's hand, to nod and receive the girl's love.
And now, the girl was doing as she wished.
No longer obsessed.
Becoming normal.
Now that her wish had come true, why was the regret in her heart stronger than any other emotion?
Did the love and affection necessarily disappear along with the obsessive side?
The scale called "reincarnation" had once tipped toward her, but now it seemed to be slowly tipping toward Chi Xiaocheng.
The weights called "love" on both sides were already unequal, so how could they be balanced?
In her ear, she seemed to hear what Cheng Cheng had once said: this is the result you chose, isn't it?
Unable to awaken Xiaocheng's memories, she didn't know what to do anymore.
Was it too late to regret?
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