Chapter 82 Chapter 82: The Yandere'S Closed Loop (Extra Chapter For... I Don'T Know What To Name It)
Chapter 82: The Yandere'S Closed Loop (Extra Chapter For... I Don'T Know What To Name It)
"I... I'm a yandere?!"
Su Tao's hand, gripping her phone, trembled uncontrollably.
Just then, a white flash lit up outside the dim window, a bolt of lightning illuminating the entire world, but the delayed thunder never came.
That clap of thunder resonated within Su Tao's heart.
Before she could say anything, Doctor Cheng's tone suddenly lightened. "Of course, I was just joking. After half a month of talking with you, I understand your personality clearly. How could you possibly be a yandere?"
"Don't be so nervous," Doctor Cheng continued, her tone no longer as heavy as before. "If what you told me earlier was the truth, you probably already understand, right?"
"The reason why Miss Cheng became a yandere, and why you are the object of her yandere affection."
Doctor Cheng didn't even need to continue prompting her.
Su Tao's mind already followed her thoughts, completing the last piece of the puzzle.
Recalling that very first afternoon.
The bewildering, incomprehensible basement, a place she wished not to remember.
Chi Xiaocheng, like a madwoman, screamed at her, utterly distraught.
"—You always told me I was your most precious friend, your most important person, the one you loved most!
—Since you told me all that, why did you betray me?!
—Ye Liang, Si Chen, Dongfang Yang, you already have me, why do you still need to like them?!
—Taotao, isn't just me enough?"
At the time, Su Tao couldn't understand why Chi Xiaocheng would say such things.
She merely thought it was wrong ideas instilled by those unfriendly friends of hers, leading her astray.
Only now, looking back, and with Doctor Cheng's guidance, did she gradually understand.
Xiaocheng saying those things was all because of her!
Yet she was only a few months older than Chi Xiaocheng; how much more could she possibly understand?
Both of them had, at one time, been ignorant and naive.
And all this time, Su Tao had only ever seen Chi Xiaocheng as her best friend, a younger sister who always lacked security and needed encouragement and care.
She had never once considered Chi Xiaocheng's perspective, or the unintentional words she herself had spoken.
Parting the clouds, one finally sees the light.
The logic hadn't broken down; the past suspense and entanglement formed a closed loop at this moment.
"So it's because of me that Xiaocheng became a yandere."
Su Tao murmured softly.
"And after Xiaocheng became a yandere, I became afraid of her, dreaded her, even thought of running away, of abandoning her forever......"
Her thoughts became clear, but her brain began to run out of oxygen.
Waves of guilt and self-reproach flooded Su Tao's heart.
Word by word, she uttered, "All this time, I've been wronging Xiaocheng......"
Meanwhile, Chi Xiaocheng, holding the phone and listening to these murmured words, smiled a strange and satisfied smile.
Gently, she reached out, offering a lifeline.
"Miss Taozi, there's still a chance to save her."
Su Tao snapped back to reality, urgently asking Doctor Cheng, "Can she really still be saved?"
Doctor Cheng said with a half-smile, her gentle and mature voice reassuring, "We are merely helping you sort out your own thoughts right now, to recognize the current situation. The question of whether she can be saved is fundamentally something that comes last."
Su Tao eagerly asked, "Then what... what should I do?"
But Doctor Cheng did not continue to interfere. Instead, she slowly said, "What you do next is not for me to decide, but depends on your own actions."
It's precisely unknown choices and actions that bring surprises, Taotao~
Doctor Cheng: "And going back to our previous topic, after rejecting the option of sending her to a mental hospital, all you can do now is accept her."
"Also, you've now straightened out your own situation. When you face her, will you still be as afraid as before?"
"I..." Su Tao let out a soft breath. "It's all my fault that Xiaocheng became like this. I will take responsibility. Even if this hadn't happened, I wouldn't have just left her alone."
"But Doctor Cheng, do you have other methods to relieve stress and anxiety?" Su Tao pressed. "I know I must take responsibility, but Xiaocheng's yandere state still makes my heart pound a little."
"Regarding your issue, what you need is a listener," Doctor Cheng slowly explained. "Preferably an online friend, like me, someone you don't know personally but can still talk to easily."
"Of course, real-life friends can work too, but it's best if they're trustworthy, and don't let your Orange friend know."
"Additionally, it's currently popular to find various 'buddies' for activities. You could find someone with a common hobby, and enjoy your shared interest while chatting."
Su Tao hesitated. "Uh... I don't really have any hobbies."
"Then find a hobby," Doctor Cheng said. "Watching anime together, playing games, just having a voice chat when you have nothing to do—all of that is fine. Besides, exercise can also relieve stress, but given your situation, having someone to talk to would be even better."
"Okay, I'll try."
Su Tao diligently noted it down.
She then asked, "So Doctor Cheng, how should I face Xiaocheng? I... I don't have any idea."
"Just be as you normally are," Doctor Cheng said, smiling. "When yanderes aren't provoked, they're very well-behaved. But you know what, I think you could also try to enjoy it a little."
"Enjoy?"
"That's right. If you can't resist, then why not try to enjoy the process of treatment? Do you remember what I said?"
Doctor Cheng's laugh was alluring. "A yandere's love is one of a kind."
Su Tao said hesitantly, "But... I'm only pretending to like her, to enjoy something like this, it just feels so......"
"That doesn't conflict with you pretending to like her," Doctor Cheng interrupted Su Tao. "This is a process, but ultimately it depends on you. But there's one thing you must remember: try to accept what you dislike."
Su Tao murmured, perplexed, "Accept what I dislike?"
"Yes," Doctor Cheng nodded. "You're afraid of your Orange friend, and you want to escape. If you don't even try to accept her flaws, to accept your dislike of her, then to her, it's as if no one is standing by her side."
"This is very important for the treatment!"
It was the first time Doctor Cheng had uttered the two words "very important," and Su Tao nodded solemnly. "I understand, Doctor Cheng. Thank you for your guidance today!"
Doctor Cheng acknowledged. "You're welcome. I told you, as doctors, we often use this method to sort out our patients' thoughts. At most, I can spare some time to chat with you; I can't help you any more than that."
Of course, as a psychologist, while sorting out thoughts...
...she could also guide them.
Oh, Taotao, how could you ever escape my grasp?
Xiaocheng is so cute, don't you truly like her?
The call ended.
Su Tao let out a long, heavy sigh. After understanding what she needed to do and think, the depression in her heart cleared considerably.
Recalling Doctor Cheng's words, Su Tao murmured, contemplating, "Try to accept what I dislike, then Xiaocheng will be happy......"
She didn't dislike Chi Xiaocheng, she was just a little afraid of her yandere tendencies. So what was there to dislike?
As she thought this, Su Tao suddenly remembered something.
She slowly turned her head, looking at the leftover...
...half-empty glass of orange juice.
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