Chapter 212 Chapter 212 Liking Isn'T Obedience, It'S Initiative
Chapter 212 Liking Isn'T Obedience, It'S Initiative
For over a month, Su Tao had all but shut herself off, constantly dwelling in the past and her memories.
Of course, she had thought about a lot of things.
Including, but not limited to: Chi Xiaocheng not being dead, her still being alive and waking up, herself being the one who died, and even accepting her yandere tendencies from the start.
Originally, she had many choices, like playing a lighthearted *galgame*.
She could close her eyes and randomly choose, skip ahead with a single click, and as long as she was aiming to win over Chi Xiaocheng, she would successfully reach the perfect ending.
But in reality, faced with countless choices, she had always picked the wrong one.
And then entered a Bad End that very few people would trigger.
What would Xiaocheng want to do if she came back to life?
She dreamed of Chi Xiaocheng coming back to life, and with everyone's reminders and lectures, she gradually understood that if she really could wake up...
Confess to her!
Be with her!
This was what she wanted most before she died, her last wish. Only by achieving this could she avoid directly becoming a yandere herself.
But what about after the confession?
Su Tao hadn't thought that far ahead.
Because Chi Xiaocheng coming back to life was already incredibly good news to her. She didn't have the extra energy to think about anything better.
But Chengcheng had brought the thoughts she was subconsciously avoiding out into the open.
Those dark eyes fixed on her were incredibly deep, and for a moment, Su Tao even hallucinated that they were Chi Xiaocheng's crimson eyes.
Seeing Su Tao's silence, Chengcheng lightly asked, "Are you still unsure and don't know what to do?"
Hearing her words, Su Tao took a deep breath. "No!"
Her eyes became firm, and she clenched her fists. "No matter what, I'll stand by Xiaocheng's side. If she becomes a yandere, then I'll accept her yandere side and love her!"
This declaration surprised Chengcheng. "Such a high level of awareness?"
Su Tao exhaled. "Because I've made enough mistakes due to my hesitation and avoidance. I don't want to repeat them. Even if the road ahead is difficult, I'll force myself to adapt and get used to it."
She didn't want to make her heartbroken again.
Chengcheng took a small sip of water, her gaze flicking to Su Tao's legs in cotton pants.
The two hands clenched on top of them were trembling slightly.
It was clear that she had mustered up her courage to say those words and had quickly prepared herself mentally.
If Chi Xiaocheng really became incredibly morbid after that,
Then she would accept her morbidity.
After speaking, Su Tao turned to look at her friend. "Chengcheng, you've also done some research on yanderes. If you were Xiaocheng..."
As soon as she said this, Su Tao didn't notice Chengcheng's hand holding the cup tremble, as if she had been burned.
She continued, "If you were in her shoes, how would you react to my answer?"
Chengcheng thought for a moment and strategically took a sip of water. "I'd be a little relieved, but not too happy or excited."
Su Tao was taken aback. "Why?"
Chengcheng said, "First of all, I'm not Xiaochengzi, and I don't know what she's thinking."
"Secondly, from my personal perspective, I think it's relieving that you've been avoiding it all along, and now you finally dare to face it, even if you're only doing it because you're putting pressure on yourself."
"But I wouldn't feel too happy, because your love and confession and acceptance of the yandere side aren't coming from yourself."
"But from some external pressure, or something you have to do."
Chengcheng put down her water and looked sideways at Su Tao. "You want to confess to Xiaocheng after she wakes up because her last wish is to truly be with you, right? After all, you said that you argued about this before she died."
"And accepting her yandere side is a helpless choice because you don't know what else to do and can't go against her."
"Instead of realizing the key point that 'her being a yandere is also for me, so I'll love her yandere side too.'"
"Taozi, empathy is necessary. For the sake of both of your futures, you can't just blindly obey her, understand?"
Hearing her words, Su Tao lowered her head and bit her lip slightly.
If she were to speak from the bottom of her heart...
She did have some feelings for Chi Xiaocheng, which was definitely true.
Unlike their previous tangled sisterly feelings, even surpassing gender, she enjoyed being by Chi Xiaocheng's side, and she loved it when she clung to her and affectionately called her "Taotao."
Since Chi Xiaocheng's death, after having dream after dream, she was even more certain that this was the love as she understood it.
But it was undeniable that Chi Xiaocheng had also put a lot of pressure on her.
Compared to other emotions and thoughts, this love was only a little bit.
Just like what the status glasses showed, her affection for Chi Xiaocheng was only around 65.
Even if she confessed after she woke up, love would only be a part of it. Perhaps more of her thoughts were because Chi Xiaocheng "expected" her to do so.
A word awakened the dreamer.
But after waking up, Su Tao didn't know how to change for a while.
At this moment, Chengcheng asked, "You're silent, which means I'm right, right?"
There were no outsiders here, and Su Tao dejectedly nodded. "At least... mostly right."
Chengcheng said, "You just haven't really lost her, so you're caught in this contradiction."
Su Tao pouted. "I've already lost her twice."
Chengcheng said, "You know I'm not talking about that kind of loss."
After these words, Su Tao fell silent.
She didn't know what she was thinking about.
It was a little difficult to figure some things out alone.
Teaching people doesn't work, but experiencing something teaches you once.
In fact, the essence can't escape one point.
Chi Xiaocheng just hoped that Su Tao could love her more.
That she would focus her gaze and care more on her, to make up for the missing sense of security.
After a while, Chengcheng glanced at the time on the wall clock, and seeing that Su Tao couldn't figure it out for a while, she stood up and said, "Think about it yourself. I'll go first."
"Eh?"
Su Tao also stood up. "Are you leaving so soon? I was planning to treat you to lunch."
Chengcheng shrugged. "Looking at your current state, you don't seem to have any intention of having a good lunch, do you?"
Su Tao: "Actually, I'm waiting for a friend. A friend I used to be very close to, but I haven't seen her for a while. I also wanted to introduce you to her. I feel like you'd get along."
Hearing this, Chengcheng narrowed her eyes. "Very close?"
"Yeah, a middle school friend. She helped me out at my birthday banquet last time. I want to treat her to a meal to thank her properly."
Chengcheng glanced at the time on the wall again. There was still an hour and a half before she could go back on vacation.
So she sat back down calmly. "Now that you mention it, I'm not in such a hurry. You know I love making friends."
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